Call Me Crazy

Exactly one year ago yesterday I decided to move to New York based upon a vision God placed in my heart. I don’t know if I’m the only one that’s lived a quarter life crisis but last year, while most of my peers were building on their lives, mine seemed like it was falling apart. I had a broken heart, I felt no type of fulfillment in my work, and my life overall just didn’t feel like the life I was created to live. So I cried out to God and asked him to open some door in what seemed like this dead end pit I was in and He gave me a vision of me living in New York and prospering in a publishing career. Instantly I knew that was for me. I didn’t know how I would get there but I knew I would. A year later I still don’t have the exact plan worked out but I have an apartment and a one-way ticket.

With much prayer, consideration and preparation over the past year I still feel this is the right decision for me, however risky and scary it may be. There’s nothing but an impulse, or should I say the ‘inner pulse’ of my heart driving me to NYC. No man, no job, no school. No promise, no guarantee. No blueprint for how this is all going to work out. And call me crazy but I’m moving forward anyway. Dr. King said faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase and that is exactly what I am doing.

I’ve gotten many pats on the back for my perceived bravado, and have been equally ridiculed for my supposed naivety. Nothing new is happening under the sun, hence I don’t take words of sound advice lightly. However, this is my life…my ONE life to live and I cannot live it in fear of the unknown nor refuse the call of my inner voice. Therefore I am going to New York, trembling with trepidation, squinting in a fog, not knowing what’s coming next.

The one thing I do know is that there is no failure in following your heart. I strongly believe that God honors truth and if you misstep with a genuine heart he will guide your feet to the place where they need to be. Lord may you know my heart, may you guide my feet.